hi! i'm at home now having this anxiety attack (chuks!). seriously, i'm feeling down. i have to go to work tonight kasi i was assigned the graveyard shift. e i don't feel like going to work, actually, i don't feel like working at all. sobrang wala na kong gana. there are a lot of people na nag-resign na. kami na nga lang ni ruby ang natira sa batch namin, tapos next month aalis pa sya papuntang saipan to look for work there. i feel that i am the only person na di pa nakaka-move on with my career. sobrang sad ang feeling ko.

i actually had some interviews and exams before pero wala ring ngyayari. i'm really having a hard time looking for another job. frustrated na ko.

in fairness, ok lang naman job ko. kaya ko yung work, ok naman yung mga tao. pero i feel that i am capable of doing more. plus siguro yung feeling kong pressure na ako na lang ang di pa nakakaalis sa office. ako na lang ang di pa nakakahanap ng better job. yun nga, i'm not moving on.

sometimes i feel na kung ganito lang naman, e di sagarin ko na. yun bang magpaka-bum na lang talaga ako. at least, i know na reasonable yung sadness ko. unlike now na i have a job, friends,etc. pero i'm not happy pa rin. ey belinds, what can you suggest i should do?