oi cherryl...kakatapos ko lang maglunch and saw ur blog...been anxious about my job rin..."been" is the operative word as i've experienced it in the past and it's still continuing in the present...i guess it's pretty normal to feel that way...which is actually good in some way coz that means we're always on the look out for something better; that we know we deserve something more...the downside is if you let that anxiety get to you...i dont know if im in the position to give you advice...chuks...kasi magkaiba motivation natin...me kasi, i knew i needed a better-paying job so i can help sa finances ng family ko...so parang i had to work not only for myself but for my family rin; so feeling ko naman, mas grabeh pressure pero i know rin that everyone has his or her own battles to win...so it's never appropriate to compare who has the heavier burden nor adjudge others as shallow for being so affected by what may seem rather petty to us...anyways, i guess im lucky i ended up with my current job which not only pays well but is something that im really interested in...

so thinking about it now...what did i do...i guess it started with the realization na i wanted something more that my previous job as a journalist couldnt fulfill...so i guess meron ka na nun di ba...then it dawned on me that i needed an mba degree to be able to command a higher pay and yeah, to learn na rin...i knew i couldnt transfer to another job lang coz mejo hindi aligned ang mga jobs ko (banking to journalism)...so there, i went back to the academe albeit unsure pa rin of what will happen to me next...then got this job offer overseas which is ok pero shemps max two years lang ito being here on an expat status afterwhich di ko rin alam what will happen to me...it all goes round and round...hahaha...

all through all these (and it may seem like bullshit to some)...somehow i believed what paulo coelho has said in one of his novels...that if you want something badly, the whole world will connive to help you...promise!...hindi ko alam what path you should take pero i guess somehow malalaman mo na lang yun along the way...but what i know is, dont be too depressed ano...masiado ka namang affected sa mga taong umaalis...may reason why they had to leave...like si ruby, coz of her bf (kaw may bf ka ba na nasa malayo? chuks)...i mean kung wala si bf sa saipan, aalis rin ba si ruby? or if ever aalis yun siguro to tackle another career path...pero di muna nia iiwan o magiging slack or magiging over sad sia sa current job nia...ikaw din lugi...kaw su-suffer ng consequences like walang fallback job, lack of fulfillment (kasi u didnt do ur best), wrinkles...hehe...

kaw isip ka, sa tingin mo what's best for you kasi at the end of the day it's only you who can help urself...ibaiba tayo ng kwento ng buhay ikaw bahala maggawa ng kwento mo...sana im there para mag-emergency summit tayo...me rin im reviewing na rin my career coz matatapos na rin stint ko dito...wanna go back to pinas shemps but i think lalabas din ako after some time coz there's really a big world out there na i want to discover...ayun muna...balik work ako...chika ulit later or tomorrow