the armor of the third person or simply pagiging feelingera ko

hay naku...he called last night while driving "around"...asked him why he did that...he said "wala lang, muni-muni"...

then he goes (mejo nag-soliloquy sia), "naisip ko lang i haven't really cried much about the break up...the only time i did that was when nakita ko mama ko at sister ko na umiiyak."

then i go, "ok..."

then he says, "i'm listening to these songs so nag-e-emote ako. eto, papakinig ko sa yo. i'm sure alam mo to. revival ni christian bautista."

"oh yeah, i know him. i love his 'so lift your hands to heaven and pray...' " sabay kanta.

then i hear that song that goes: "you're my peace of mind in this crazy world.......you are so beautiful in my eyes..."

hmmm...

then he quickly says, "hindi ko yan song sa kanya ha. i'm just hoping na sa susunod e may peace of mind na. nakakamiss din kasi feeling. hindi yung tao, yung feeling. ikaw? namimiss mo rin di ba?"

nye, bat ako? anyways, i still agreed kasi parang tama naman sia, "yeah, you're right." i told him kasi about the guy that i first dated tas almost naging kami. pero sinasabi ko na rin na naging kami to make things simple. mahirap minsan mag-explain e.

tas tanong ako, "naiisip mo ba sia?"

sabi nia, "no, actually mas naiisip ko yung susunod sana..."

nanghina ako kasi feelingera nga ako...