hello every1 sory juz continued my story juz now been very bc l8ly.anyway,
so ayun di ba nasa shower party kami nung high skul frend ko and andun si
carlos miguel with anodr guy.carlos ws acting weird dat nyt maybe he was
drunk na kc he came from a party pa di ba. he was touching my nape(one of
girls' most sensitive parts accdg to some girls take note mga lola), pulling
my belt (ano baaaaaaa gusto yata tanggalin no chuks!), and making kiliti
ha(kakaiba na siya)God knows why?!!!!!in all honesty,i was kindda
embarrassed cz my frends wer der (no chika) baka they will think badly of
me(charing) baka sabihn ang landi ko (hindi ba?) di ba at dat tym i dont
know wat 2 tink (wala ko maisip lumipad na utak ko sa ginagawa niya hehehe)
but d oder part of me (meron pa ba?)tinks that somhow maybe after all dis
years of waiting, of longing, now as in now is the tym iv bn dreaming of
maybe (jz maybe)he sees me mor dan a frend, maybe he sees me as a woman
(wala nga boobs) not juz a frend, a woman who is attractive(walang kokontra)
who has romantic potentials....but the sensible syd(minsan lang to lumabas)
of me tinks it ludicruous if not totally impossible(watever).its gud my
frends wer der(kung hindi baka pinatulan ko na no chuks) at least it somehow
reminded me wid dis "fact". d funny thing is my frends have never lykd him
esp as my potential chuchu but dat nyt he was making jokes, kuwento and tawa
as in tawa ng tawa sila. i kept on wondering y all of a sudden they changed
their tune---i tot ayaw nila s kanya, nayayabangan sila,etc etc pero tawa
naman ng tawa sila wid his jokes as in m not exaggerating most of the tym
nandun siya nagtatawan sila. i was hapy din kc finally they are seeing a syd
of him that they've never seen, overlooked or jz refused to see(cz di nga
nila gusto si carlos).i wud be a hypocrite if i deny that i want dem to lyk
him purely bcoz i lyk him.anyway, ask ko siya kumanta and and pinili
"bikining itim" aaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnd hindi lang yan niyaya pa ko
sumayaw(sayang kung kaming dalawa lang eh di ok sana nhiya lang ko frends
k).diyos ko nahiya rin ko much as i want to grab d opportunity, lumabas pa
rin kahihiyan ko(in fairness meron din ko nito) in the first place, pangit
ng song, i find it bastos baka ano isipin niya skin kung payag ko secondly,
wala lang... di ko fil sumayaw di ba ganunn yun pag gusto mo conscious ka
baka di maganda sayaw mo or somting baka mapahiya ka der is always the fear
or watever it is...in fairness, nahawakan kamay ko siyempre kc nga hinihila
niya hands k i was trying to avoid his kung tutuusin dat was lost
opportunity for me but wat can i do i realyzed i made a mistake and twas
alredi 2 l8.so alis na rin sila mgaa 10 pm and txt siya after kesyo
nag-enjoy daw siya...afterwrds, sb frends ko der is attraction but not
enough for commitment, relationship and all that entails...fine di ba i
kindda sensed it na rin before pa(manhid lang ko or di ko lang gusto i
sense) pero sumtyms its nyc to hear it agen( m a very attractive person
naman so its not surprising).kaya lang si carlos sense dw nya na i lyk him
all it nids is a confirmation from me(wat for?).sumhow, it made a lot of
sense medyo nauntog ko dun.all dis tym i was not aware of dis revolting fact
sumtyms kc im obvious cgro so i didnt know na obvious ako, sweet lang talaga
ko di ba, how i bhave around him is d same wid how i bhave wid oders.i dont
know maybe m trying to justify myself i dont know. somhw it made everyting
clear.i have to move on.ayoko in fact, ayoko makipag-date kung hindi ko lang
gusto or di tulad niya but dis shud not b my attitude di ba? every man i
meet i always compare it to him (which shud not be d case)wat can i do rin?i
dont want to ruin the frendship,etc.(frendship watever) i told myself kc
that i wud stop pining for him when he gets married (huhuhuhuhuhu) sad but
true(dis tym m not kidding).pero ha kung kunin niy ko ninang halimbawa pix
sa binyag kunyari nahulog ko baby niya (joke lang ha i caan nver do this esp
to him.one day, punta ko lto la ko car kc la nga ko lisensiya buti naman may
nakita ko car plate number biya so ask him favor idaan niya ko dun buti
naman same destination rin kami. while der, sb ko pa music siya sb niya wag
daw para marinig niya boses ko(watever!) , eto pa told him to lock his door
sb niya bakit daw rape-in ko ba siya syempre nasbi ko lang "ok k lang"(in my
dreams)sb niya joke lang daw yun. bkit di daw ko mag-bf kaibigan dw niya ko
and everyting syempre gusto niya masaya ko (king alam lang niya d guy i want
is sitting bsyd me)tapos kuwento luvlyuf niya (alam niyo ba filing tumitirik
mata niyo sa inis.dat's how i felt den back to frends na naman.bkt ganun?
pero tanung ko rin skanya kung kita pa rin niya yung crush ko na kilala nya
sb niya di na daw.sb ko kc f ever yun mga husband material tahimik, angelic,
simple, etc (d ko paselos ha)sb niya yun daw pala mga type ko sb ko oo
naman...(in all honesty, mas guwapo s kanya mas mabait, down to
earth,etcetc.)anyway, so we agreed to mit outsyd the bank pag punta ko car
niya wala saya dun so text ko siya kc may frend siya dun bank (girl
ha).anyway, hatid nya ko i ask him favor sb niya bc may ginagawa siya so
work so medyo nadisappoint ko parang ewan ko ba i ask litttle tings and
sobra bihira pa yun di pa niya magawa.luv yyyyyyy is it so
complicated????????????mali kung mali kc i kindda expect pero naisip ko lang
yun naman that der r tings i can, wil try to do for him pero siya simple
tingss di pa mgawa.hhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy pagibig (sabi nga ni ara
mina di ba).
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