oist...musta na kayo? di na kayo paparamdam ah! btw, sinabi ko na ba sa inyong nagresign na si bestfriend tuan? buuhuuu...ayun, mega bakasyon sia now...nagtetext sia sa kin para mang-inggit...lech...

oist cherryl...kwento naman about the wedding...aheheh....im so excited...ate vane's gonna get married! sino kaya sunod? =)

ok then...sa may tayo, actually oks lang kahit june...mukhang madaming gagawin kasi that month...pero carry na rin...mejo mura ngayon mag-thailand from vietnam mga more or less 200USD...diretso ka ba thailand at magmeet na lang tayo dun or vietnam ka muna?

hoy cherryl, invited ba ko sa wedding? kelan yun? at BAKIT SI DONG ANG PARTNER MO? waaahhh....kiss mo na lang sia for me...chuks.

hi belinda,

i have super sad news, di na muna ako tuloy sa april 3 sa vietnam.
di pa rin dumadating ang tax refund checks ko,
and i was hoping na yun ang mag-finance ng trip.
super duper major sad, as in!
pero sana by may matuloy na ako para swak din sa sked ni prasong.
grabe, ang hirap maging dukha!

btw, may mga damit ng abay na raw sa kasal ni ate v,
so more or less tuloy na nga yun sa may.
partner daw ni lukring si dong.

nyikes...sinong tuan? yung very first friend ko dito? lately, we dont talk much...di na kami close noh; im kindda inis i think...i dont know, just discovered some character flaws na di ko like e...di kasi sia masiadong nag-iisip at di ganon ka-hardworking...

the other tuan na close ko lately, nickname nia nhim (pronounced nyim), magreresign na...na-pirate...lech...sia yung nagbigay ng isda na after some weeks namatay naman...at sia rin nagbigay ng viet wine sa kin na iniinom ko minsan pagfeel ko...

yung other tuan naman...kebs lang sia...

so wala no...

like ko lang song coz it sounds like a theme song for those who are looking for love...*bashful smile*...pero dont take this against me ha...everyone needs love naman di ba...! chuks

anong checks na yan...sana pina-western union mo na lang... or pinadeposit mo sa account mo (para mas mura)...how did he send it to you? bat ang tagal?

basta marlon...request ko lang, sana at least two weeks (three weeks nga kung pede) before ka alis, sabihin mo na sa kin ha...di talaga pedeng biglaang leave dito promise...at para ma-coordinate natin mga sched natin; kasama si prasong shemps...

napanood ko love actually tsaka lost in translation...like ko both...hanapin ko camp next weekend...

cherryl, lani, shiela...who ish u na...?

hi belinda!

saykolow ang song of the day ha!
meron ka bang inspiration kaya yan fave song mo ngayon?
may nangyari na ba sa inyo ni tuan?
chuks!

super antok ko pala today, super pagod weekend kasi.
since friday night, rampa lang nang rampa,
nag-midnight sale kasi sa glorietta.
nakabili ako ng 1 shirt and 2 shampoo soaps,
and that's it, ilang oras na lakad yan.
the following day naman, thesis proposal presentation,
tapos diretso sa japanese embassy for another class.
nag-talk kami with the director tapos chika-chika.
after class, diretso sa adriatico by the bay,
para naman sa individual paper presentation.
last day of classes na kasi last saturday so lahat hinapit.
kahit super ingay sa adriatico, sige report pa rin.
tapos dinner sa raj sa malate with gradschool friends.
indian resto na somekinda syala, but it's really nice.
don kami sa biggest room and nakaupo sa floor.
for dessert, i ordered khulfi, indian ice cream.
medyo saykolow kasi lasang curry!
no chuks!

as of today din pala, wala pa rin ang checks from glen.
i'm still praying na dumating this week,
para naman makabili na ako ng plane tickets.
yun na lang kasi ang hinihintay ko para matuloy sa vietnam.
i still haven't replied to prasong's email,
kasi di pa nga talaga sure.
pero kaya mo naman mag-leave that week diba?
sayang nga, di natin maabutan ang thai new year,
which is april 11-13.

last week pala, nag-organize ako ng bb pilipinas party,
and nagpunta si lukring, tita lulu, mam mila and princess sarah.
happy naman, although si tita lulu nag-inarte,
at umuwi nang maaga.
bumili rin ako kay oche ng 300 itlog ng pugo,
so baka lahat kami ngayon sa house, may hypertension.
chuks!

anyways, try to look for a dvd copy of "camp".
super nice musical, and makaka-relate ka sa mga characters.
one of my recent faves.

fave song of the moment:

Is it ok if I call you mine just for a time?
And I will be just fine
If I know that you know that I'm wanting, needing your love

If I ask of you is it alright
If I ask you to hold me tight
through a cold tough night
'cause there may be a cloudy day inside
and I need to let you know that I might be needing your love

And what I'm trying to say isn't really new
It's just the things that happen to me when I'm reminded of you

Like when I hear your name
or see a place that you've been
or see a picture of your grin
or pass a house that you've been in one time or another
it sets off something in me I can't explain
and I can't wait to see you again
Oh babe I love your love

And what I'm trying to say isn't really new
It's just the things that happen to me when I'm reminded of you

hi ulit...about aldo...exaj lang ako na nakasalalay lovelife ng friend ko sa info abt him...sabi naman nia he's not courting her kasi may gf nga...pero he texts her most of the time to tell her what he's doing chuchu...so i guess merong something...plus, he says mahirap relationship nila ng current gf nia bec they're "worlds apart"...apparently, 32 yrs old na yung girl at meron ng anak (dalawa ata) ...so there...kilala nio ba current gf nun? tsismosa ano.......

how are u guys na?

havent heard from u in a long time ahh....

hehehe..eto email ni prasong, locoloco talaga yun:

Dear Belinda

What's else I can say. Your friend 'Marlon' has shown me the city of
Makati from inside-out. We had very good time together with one pretty
lady (over statements) from your university. Guessed her name is Cherry.
You know that I am not good to remember girls' name.... ha..ha.

Marlon is planning to get Thai boys in Bangkok in this April (if he cannot
get one in Makati by the end of this month). You know gay needs to consume
boys for keeping his beauty. I will be one to take good care of your
lovely friend during his stay.

Keep in touch. And hope to see you soon.

Cheers.

Prasong Juajamsai
Office Tel : (662) 676-6255 ext. 106
Mobile Tel : (661) 835-4205

hi everyone!

grabe ha, ang active ng mga tao mag-blog lately,
tapos ang pinakamaganda ever ang medyo busy with career.
yes, kilala ko yung aldo carrascoso, but not personally.
brother ng teacher ko na favorite ako, si carlo,
and ex-boyfriend ng classmate ko, si anna david.
member ng spirit chuchu sa ateneo si aldo, lower batch,
and ngayon e commercial model na.
dami nya commercials lately, even sa mrt, meron!
super major cutie yan, as in!
bat pala nakadepende yung lovelife ng kakilala mo?
nililigawan ba sya ni aldo?
if yes, omg, super win sya, as in!

anyways, grabe rin pala ang topic dito lately,
about work anxieties and other heavy stuff!
ako naman, cool lang ako, pa-text-text lang kasi
andami kong free text dahil lumipat ako ng plan.
chuks!

wala akong masabi pang advice kasi nasabi na halos lahat.
i agree with most of them, and it's only natural to have anxieties.
basta bottomline lang is, do whatever makes you happy.
don't blame other people for your mistakes and decisions,
and whatever we have, we somehow deserve them.
it's not that i'm fatalistic, pero lahat naman nadadaan sa
tamang preparasyon at pagpa-plano.
nothing can be done overnight,
and if that ever happens, is it sustainable in the long run?
it takes time, and being an impatient person, this says a lot.
i'm taking my asian studies seriously, as in seriously,
kasi i want to move away from the computer industry.
but like what i said, it won't happen overnight.
teka pala, sabi ko wala na akong masabing advice,
pero naka-isang paragraph na ako.
chuks!

ako na pala ang sasagot para kay mam mila, and yes game sya!
eto ang number nya: 09174332260,
and hopefully, this is not another elias, pulis or seaman.
chuks!

lani! nag blog ka di ka man lang nagsagot sa tanong ko...oks lang bigay ko number mo? tsaka ano number mo????

pero agree ako sa yo...basta dapat lang talaga maging brave tayo ;)

everything will be all right rin some day....ahehehe

sino may nakakakilala ke aldo carasscoso....please tell me what you know about him...meron nagtatanong sa kin...psych ang course...malamang ka-batch mo marlon....................bilis, tell me....nakadepende dito lovelife ng kilala ko

cherryl, belinda
makikisali na rin ako sa career anxiety bandwagon ha..i know perfectly well what cherryl is undergoing, i'm in the process of evaluating my life now also, officially five years na ako sa Miriam and just like Cherryl most of my batchmates are not here anymore. Don't really know kun san-san na sila now basta what i know is happy na sila wherever they are. As for me, i can say that i'm not really happy anymore dito sa Miriam. Not happy in the sense that although i'm still enjoying what i'm doing now, i know that there can be something else out there that i would prefer/love doing.I'm not happy rin kse i feel like i'm in a dead end here eh. Dead end kse i wouldn't budge and do some things that would make me stand out from the others...i know i can always do that if i would really want to outshine my co-teachers here pero wala ako balak.. i don't know if you can follow me...i feel like bakit kailangan ako magmaganda when i know myself and i know very well na magaling ako (konti lang!;->) Kaya lang in the process, ang napapansin yun iba and pag yun iba naman ang narecognize,i don't know if this is sourgraping, i feel a twinge of "ngek, bakit sya, mas magaling ako sa kanya eh!" But the thing is, yoko pa rin magmagaling and pumapel. Gets?
if not, okay lang,basta bottom line lang, i'm not going anywhere here in Miriam. So why am i staying pa? Mainly because of the pay...i have to admit that the pay here is good..maybe not as good as what marlon and belinda may be getting (sorry cherryl ;-> ) pero good enough for me. Just like Belinda i have obligations din sa bahay eh.
So sometimes naiisip ko, unfair. Some people get to pursue their happiness and their own legends when some people are restrained by factors like family obligations. I'm not saying hindi ako masaya na i am able to help out pero there are times when i feel like there so many things that i could still do had it not been for some personal reasons....

kaya lang if one would really think about it, tao tayo di ba and we are capable of transcending whatever restraints are holding us down to our spot now...

sad, that means ako lang talaga ang reason why i'm in a rut now....:-(

siesta time! anyways, i remember reading somewhere that for those seriously considering a career shift, on top of what i've spelled out earlier:

1. moment of change- chika lang ang name...this is akin to the moment of truth in the seven secrets to success...this is the time when you actually review your current career situation and realize that you need change...

2. paulo coelho mantra- if you want something badly, the whole world will connive to help you. i think this is essential...most of the time, we feel that there's no end to the wreck that we seem to be in right now (i swear, been there, done that: imagine two years as a fulltime student without the assurance of getting a job after graduation; was scared rin kasi baka i just wasted my time), kaya it's important to remind ourselves frequently na there's hope...this makes you hope that after the rain, a rainbow will appear...and better yet, that at the end of the rainbow, there's a pot of gold...chuks...plus, it also makes you feel more positive, as opposed to being depressed which will only invite negative energies...

3. dont leave ur current job unless you have a fallback/enough cash to last you until you find a new one- think of your current job as utilitarian: at least it pays the phone bill. at least it gets you to go to gimmicks with marlon and prasong. at least it keeps you from being a burden to your parents (asking for bum's allowance)...nuf said. =)

they also need the following:

4. know your passion and be good at it- tas financial rewards will follow. quitoriano (yehey.com) can attest to this; i remember he said that before the money came, while slaving away in front of the pc, they (he and his biz partners) hardly had any sleep at all and all they had for food was noodles, noodles and more noodles...i think also that this is what marlon is doing right now; what with his japanese/asian studies class and all...hilig nia kasi mag-study ng culture ng iba...ikaw what do you want? i think you're more of the artsy type of person...im not suggesting anything ha, pero just in case you wanna do say, movies or docus or TVCs, knowing that you lack the skill and/or knowledge (although may talent!), eh di try to go back to school or mag-apprentice ka muna in some company...eh di ba sabi nga ni oprah success is the intersection of luck and preparation...so if ever the opportunity presents itself, kelangan fully equipped ka na to tackle the challenge...it's not easy, it will take time...

tsaka may i add one more:

5. pray- i think we all need divine intervention. this helps. even miren padilla (remember malice of the lambanog fame) subscribes to this...said she even went as far as worshiped the lady of manaoag...

sia sia. need to go back to work ulit...ingat kayo!

lani....ano na? bilis number mo bigay ko na ha??? promise ok ang guy na ito...

oi cherryl...kakatapos ko lang maglunch and saw ur blog...been anxious about my job rin..."been" is the operative word as i've experienced it in the past and it's still continuing in the present...i guess it's pretty normal to feel that way...which is actually good in some way coz that means we're always on the look out for something better; that we know we deserve something more...the downside is if you let that anxiety get to you...i dont know if im in the position to give you advice...chuks...kasi magkaiba motivation natin...me kasi, i knew i needed a better-paying job so i can help sa finances ng family ko...so parang i had to work not only for myself but for my family rin; so feeling ko naman, mas grabeh pressure pero i know rin that everyone has his or her own battles to win...so it's never appropriate to compare who has the heavier burden nor adjudge others as shallow for being so affected by what may seem rather petty to us...anyways, i guess im lucky i ended up with my current job which not only pays well but is something that im really interested in...

so thinking about it now...what did i do...i guess it started with the realization na i wanted something more that my previous job as a journalist couldnt fulfill...so i guess meron ka na nun di ba...then it dawned on me that i needed an mba degree to be able to command a higher pay and yeah, to learn na rin...i knew i couldnt transfer to another job lang coz mejo hindi aligned ang mga jobs ko (banking to journalism)...so there, i went back to the academe albeit unsure pa rin of what will happen to me next...then got this job offer overseas which is ok pero shemps max two years lang ito being here on an expat status afterwhich di ko rin alam what will happen to me...it all goes round and round...hahaha...

all through all these (and it may seem like bullshit to some)...somehow i believed what paulo coelho has said in one of his novels...that if you want something badly, the whole world will connive to help you...promise!...hindi ko alam what path you should take pero i guess somehow malalaman mo na lang yun along the way...but what i know is, dont be too depressed ano...masiado ka namang affected sa mga taong umaalis...may reason why they had to leave...like si ruby, coz of her bf (kaw may bf ka ba na nasa malayo? chuks)...i mean kung wala si bf sa saipan, aalis rin ba si ruby? or if ever aalis yun siguro to tackle another career path...pero di muna nia iiwan o magiging slack or magiging over sad sia sa current job nia...ikaw din lugi...kaw su-suffer ng consequences like walang fallback job, lack of fulfillment (kasi u didnt do ur best), wrinkles...hehe...

kaw isip ka, sa tingin mo what's best for you kasi at the end of the day it's only you who can help urself...ibaiba tayo ng kwento ng buhay ikaw bahala maggawa ng kwento mo...sana im there para mag-emergency summit tayo...me rin im reviewing na rin my career coz matatapos na rin stint ko dito...wanna go back to pinas shemps but i think lalabas din ako after some time coz there's really a big world out there na i want to discover...ayun muna...balik work ako...chika ulit later or tomorrow

hi! i'm at home now having this anxiety attack (chuks!). seriously, i'm feeling down. i have to go to work tonight kasi i was assigned the graveyard shift. e i don't feel like going to work, actually, i don't feel like working at all. sobrang wala na kong gana. there are a lot of people na nag-resign na. kami na nga lang ni ruby ang natira sa batch namin, tapos next month aalis pa sya papuntang saipan to look for work there. i feel that i am the only person na di pa nakaka-move on with my career. sobrang sad ang feeling ko.

i actually had some interviews and exams before pero wala ring ngyayari. i'm really having a hard time looking for another job. frustrated na ko.

in fairness, ok lang naman job ko. kaya ko yung work, ok naman yung mga tao. pero i feel that i am capable of doing more. plus siguro yung feeling kong pressure na ako na lang ang di pa nakakaalis sa office. ako na lang ang di pa nakakahanap ng better job. yun nga, i'm not moving on.

sometimes i feel na kung ganito lang naman, e di sagarin ko na. yun bang magpaka-bum na lang talaga ako. at least, i know na reasonable yung sadness ko. unlike now na i have a job, friends,etc. pero i'm not happy pa rin. ey belinds, what can you suggest i should do?