James Hamilton Paterson

Read this in http://books.guardian.co.uk/departments/generalfiction/story/0,,1934205,00.html

And, of course, he lived alone - he doesn't do relationships. 'I just get bored and feel I ought to leave all that to people who are good at it. My attempts at living with someone have been ludicrous - they never lasted more than about three months. It caused quite a lot of stress when I was younger because you are taught that a failure to make close personal relationships is a terrible symptom of something awful. And of course it isn't. It's a big lie.'

super relate ako! chuks. i dont get bored though but i agree super stressful ang relationships for me (say! as if nakadami na!) so like james h-p, i'll leave that to people who are good at it.

chuks.

long(est) weekend

alex

alex met my friends. went to watch les miz on friday. naloca kami over lea salonga. pa-pic with autograph kami. lea is really pretty in person pala; and not really chubby as she seems onstage and on cam. afterwards, we had dinner sa hooters kasi bday celeb ni clarisa.

on sat, we went to watch phantom. tas nung evening, went to attend mae's bday celeb naman in her house. erik was there. sayang parehas silang shy. they were at one time seated next to each other; BUT they never spoke to each other. i'm thinking siguro conscious si erik; H1 once told me that that guy is really shy/quiet. and i'm sure since almost everyone knew about me and H1 wanting to hook them up, mejo praning nga si erik. so i thought wala na yun devah? but no, today H1 texted, ask daw si erik when balik ni alex and ni-friend nia (erik) si alex sa friendster! sana naman mag-usap sila devah...sigh, why do people have to make it so complicated?!

H1

ewan ko sa kanya. naka-cold na naman ang water dispenser; swear, feeling ko di na nia ako like. super sad talaga. i dunno what i did but i dont wanna think about it na. oh well, hello na talaga ulit single-blessedness...give up na ko.

oh cute asked me if i like him. i dint exactly want to deny kasi baka dumating ke H1. basta sabi ko lang sa kanya "oo man or hindi sagot ko, hindi pa rin tama kasi loyalty mo sa kanya pa din kasi sia talaga friend mo."

H2

went out with him- as a friend lang ha- nung monday. i didnt really want to. pero hindi naman nagyaya si H1 and i was depressed plus depressed pa si tita leah plus baka kelangan nga ng kasama ni H2, so i said ok labas kami when he called mga mid-morning. kasama ko talaga si tita leah kasi scared ako baka mag iiyak na naman yun na mag-isa. we went to cheesecake factory sa long island tas shopping for a bit. hindi na sumama si tita leah sa movie (pirates) nung gabi kasi feeling nia gusto daw akong "solo-hin" ni H2! saykolow devahh. natakut ako. tas when i went home, sabi ni tita leah type daw ako ni H2, obvious naman daw. sabi ko, "hindi, friends lang kami. tsaka di naman nagsasabi yun." sabi nia "ganon talaga style mga pinoy." inayko.

pero still, i think ok lang naman lumabas minsan with him, i just have to make sure na pakita ko sa kanya na friendship lang in-offer ko sa kanya.

tita leah

na-witness ni alex ang drama sa buhay ni tita leah. friday pa lang when we went home early in the morning (ay, that makes it sat morning na pala!), nalaman namin nahuli nia bf nia with his ex-wife pero deny pa din to the highest level ang lalaki. saykolow. tas saturday, she couldnt find the 15K USD engagement ring. nagtutuwad-tuwad kami ni tita leah early in the morning para hanapin sa mga jewelry boxes nia at suloksulok ng room nia ang ring. tas while alex and i were watching phantom, she called me several times para bilinan na wag tatapun basura etc. anyways, she found the ring nung sunday. at! guess kung saan?! nakabalot sa isang mejas nia!! eh sino ba naman mag-iisip nun devah?! pero mejo happy na rin kahit papano.

it- indonesia

hey gays,

ok na ang tours natin for 3 days sa bali. total price is 2,645,000 IDR.
per person is around 378,000 IDR.

eto ang itinerary natin:

may 27: bedugul tour

taman ayun for the royal templelake bratan with temple by the lake (bedugul)
waterfallsalas kedaton for monkey foresttanah lot for the temple by the sea.
may 28: water rafting - telaga wajah river

may 29: kintamani tour

besakih temple
toh pati for the batiks and also silver and gold smithsKintamani to see batur volcano and batur lakeubud market

sana wala uling magsabi na may nakalimutan ako,
or else ihuhulog ko sa bunganga ng bulkan!!!
chux.

-pinakamaganda

hotness according to zafra

Read this sa blog ni JZ:

Hotness is inversely proportional to the awareness of one’s own hotness.

H = x/a, in which H is hotness, a is awareness, and x is the hotness constant which spells the difference between a man who is merely attractive and one who makes your chromosomes go boink, boink, boink.

Therefore, a man who does not appear to know the effect he has on women makes him even hotter.

mistaken identity

Emailan nila Marlon and Con after maghanap ng maleta for Bali:

Con: Oo nga no. di kita pinakain. in fairness, pinakain mo the last time na nagpasama ka

Marlon: e kasi baka sabihin ng mga tao don, "ano ba tong amo nya, walang awa, ayaw pa-meryendahin si inday, parang magko-collapse na nga sa gutom e..." chux!

Con: saykolow ka marlon, parang empanada lang ang pinakain mo. wala pang pantulak. muntik na nga kaming mabulunan. chux

Marlon: KACHEAPAN GALORE!!! jamaican pattie NOT = empanada.
tutulak sana kita nung parating yung train e. chux!

Con: ay oo nga pala. jamaican pattie nga pala yun. parang empanada kasi.

Marlon: may empanada bang super anghang?! hay naku, kacheapan talaga!!! chux.

freaking friday

hello! eto na naman ako!

may kakaibang nangyari kanina...background: J is a friend of my friend, Chat, from MBA. turns out that he hangs out in the same place as we do (Panchito's sa West Village)...so i mentioned that we were going to the same place this friday; sabi ko if dun sila gimik, then i could meet him and introduce him to friends...actually plan ko talaga i-hook up yung guy friends nia sa girl friends ko...and i told him that, pero sabi ko friendship muna...

H1 said he'll be late kasi he'll be driving Raymond to the airport...

so i and the girls get to the place at 9pm and J is already there- with about 6 other guys! i didn't expect him to bring so many guys...kasi he mentioned konti lang and that may girls pang kasama...but no, puro guys! although in addition to the 6, two other couples from their group arrived after an hour or so...

so we settled sa isang couch, 7 girls kami tas 3 guys na bf/asawa/vakler ...tas J and the other guys nagsettle din sa couch next to us...naki-mingle sila, which was really nice...tas these guys, shempre ako common friend, sa akin kumakausap...in fairness merong ibang cutee; pero well, i like H na...anyways, patawag and pa-introduce ako sa mga girls para ma-expand friendships nila; na siguro mejo OA on my part na; plus i didn't want din actually the girls to think i was flirting with the guys devahhh...tas loob loob ko, nasan na si H!

he arrived siguro mga 12mn na, kasama pa sis nia; natagalan sila kasi may dalang car- nawala tas nahirapan im sure maghanap ng parking...that time, katabi ako ng isang guy and ni J kasi kinakausap nila ako- eh imagine nio nag-merge na yung two groups by this time so super siksikan...and super conscious ako, promise! baka isipin na malandi ako...which is partially true only...chuks..

so ergo, i didnt get to talk to him much...kasi i felt i needed to "entertain" J et. al. pero happy na din ako kasi isang girl, si maan, may bagong yosi partner sia na friend ni J...plus, may future plans pang mag-poker yung girls with the guys...say!

i texted H1 when i got home kanina (nagsubway kami ng girls going to queens)...no reply...which is really strange; normally sia nga tumatawag and never sleeps before calling me after a night out...:( i know i didn't do anything bad, pero i feel bad...

guessing games

from marlon:

BWAHAHAHAHAHA!

bakit ang mga guys ang hilig magsabi ng kung anu-ano like yang mga travel chuchu na yan?
ganon ba talaga sila ka-long term mag-plan? or gusto lang magbigay ng impression na MAY long term plans sila?
para feeling naman natin e seryoso tong mga nangyayari, and hindi for fun lang?

hindi pa ba talaga kayo nagki-kiss evah???

me:

EWAN KO TALAGA...di ko sila gets bat ganon...and ayoko na isipin...pls lang...
and nope, walang kiss...ni hawak ng kamay wala pa e...serioso...so weird talaga; this is the first time evah na na-experience ko to...

naisip ko yung sinabi mo marlon, what if di ako pala yung sinasabi nia? saykolow...mejo confusing din kasi yung mga actions nia...parang ayoko na nga mag-antay, chuks; no, more of ayoko na ng guessing game...date na lang kaya ako ulit ng iba...say!!! konti na lang, iiwas na ako...promise...nakakatakot din kasi mag-invest pano kung wala pala kasi wala naman siang sinasabi? super sad!

and speaking of guessing games, ginagawa nia eto despite the fact na when he asked me if ano ba gusto ko: sinasabi ng guy na nanliligaw sia or hindi?, i told him na i prefer na sinasabi para claro.

tas he agreed, "oo nga, ikaw yung type na girl kasi friendly ka, kelangan sabihin or mag-stand out ako (promise gamit nia word na "ako") para alam mong hindi lang friendship ang hanap ko." but, he added, "pero mas gusto ko ganon. yung nagpapakiramdaman lang kayo. nakakamiss din kasi yung feeling." feeling lang pala hanap? hindi girl? joke.

tas ako naman, hindi natuwa sa sinabi nia, "eh pano kung hindi gets ng girl?"

sagot nia, "i think alam naman nia."

jusko. masisiraan ako ng bait nito. this is not acceptable.

japanese kid in a box

from marlon:

btw, may nabasa ako kanina, super sad.
sa isang hospital sa japan, naglagay sila ng anonymous box na pwede iwanan yung mga baby
na ayaw na alagaan ng parents nila, and instead iwan sa parks, churches, etc.
but the concept was for babies lang to.

pero may nag-iwan ng 3 year old kid sa box!
tapos nakita pa daw ng mga tao yung tatay nung bata na sya naglagay don.
parang super traumatic kasi nakakaintindi na yung bata,
kasi na-interview pa kung sino naghatid sa kanya, etc.

the armor of the third person or simply pagiging feelingera ko

hay naku...he called last night while driving "around"...asked him why he did that...he said "wala lang, muni-muni"...

then he goes (mejo nag-soliloquy sia), "naisip ko lang i haven't really cried much about the break up...the only time i did that was when nakita ko mama ko at sister ko na umiiyak."

then i go, "ok..."

then he says, "i'm listening to these songs so nag-e-emote ako. eto, papakinig ko sa yo. i'm sure alam mo to. revival ni christian bautista."

"oh yeah, i know him. i love his 'so lift your hands to heaven and pray...' " sabay kanta.

then i hear that song that goes: "you're my peace of mind in this crazy world.......you are so beautiful in my eyes..."

hmmm...

then he quickly says, "hindi ko yan song sa kanya ha. i'm just hoping na sa susunod e may peace of mind na. nakakamiss din kasi feeling. hindi yung tao, yung feeling. ikaw? namimiss mo rin di ba?"

nye, bat ako? anyways, i still agreed kasi parang tama naman sia, "yeah, you're right." i told him kasi about the guy that i first dated tas almost naging kami. pero sinasabi ko na rin na naging kami to make things simple. mahirap minsan mag-explain e.

tas tanong ako, "naiisip mo ba sia?"

sabi nia, "no, actually mas naiisip ko yung susunod sana..."

nanghina ako kasi feelingera nga ako...

amalgamation

noticed some new ads on the subway recently. famous lines altered/fused with advertising cleverness i.e. from rene descartes "cogito ergo sum" (i think therefore i am), they had "i risk therefore i am"...then they had "when you risk upon a star" from cinderella, of course...

turns out that the ad is for a company that deals with insurance/risk consultancy...

engagement rings

tita leah (my roomie) currently has a problem with the bf/fiance...she suspects that he is seeing his ex-wife and uses the church/bible study as an excuse! she feels that way because it's really strange that he goes to church almost every night; asks her to leave his house early when before she would stay/sleep in his house like 4 days a week; and is always on the phone even late at night (apparently, when a phone rings three times and then you get vm, the person you're calling is on the phone)...

so now, we're really like roomies, we now see each other everyday and talk...she feels that the relationship is about to end...saying something like "pano kaya ako magsisimula ulit?" fyi, tita leah is like 50+YO na...she's divorced and has a couple of kids in pinas...but she's still pretty...anyways, she said she won't give up the engagement ring kasi malaki na pinaghirapan nia sa guy (i.e. she'd be the one taking care of the guy pag may sakit- which is often- kasi family naman nia walang pakialam)...so she asked me to research if there's a new york state law on engagement rings...and so i googled and found this in http://divorce.clementlaw.com/:

An engagement ring is a gift made in contemplation of marriage. That is, the gift is conditioned upon the marriage actually taking place. If the marriage takes place, the condition is satisfied, and the woman is permitted to keep the ring. Conversely, if the marriage does not occur, the would-be-bride must return the ring.

There is an exception to the general rule: if a man is already married, he cannot legally contract to wed.

so now, even if tita leah wants out, she can't because that would mean giving up the ring...oh well...didn't think that your investment (emotion, time, etc.) should be compensated by something material like a ring...oh well, to each his/her own...

i told H1 about this and he said "buti pa sia, sa new york binigay yung ring. sana merong ganong law sa philippines" and i was like, "oh no, she didn't return your ring?" and i think he got uncomfy and changed the topic immediately...ang kapal ng girl not to return the ring davahhh? anyways, knowing him, i'm sure it cost him a lot...i remembered he mentioned that he named his car "tiffany" short for "s-tiffany" daw hahaha...but really, it's because when he bought his current car, there was a tiffany & co. box inside...nag-connect-connect lang ako that it must be at the same time he bought the ring for the ex...if i were the girl, i'd return the ring because it's not rightfully mine, may law man o wala...kayo?

saykolow greyhound

pic here with me and alex outside the white house...

anyways, kwento ko lang...so we arrived in dc shortly after 10pm...dun sa station, madami din not from our group in new carollton na nagrereklamo bec they bought tix for a certain time tas they werent able to get on the bus...apparently, that's how the greyhound buses operate; they just sell and sell tix without actually counting how many people have purchased tix for a certain sched and just lets people into the bus even if they have a different boarding time on their tix...anyways, so the manager says the next trip to ny would be at 1145pm! and people were really complaining na kasi it's not our fault..thankfully, the manager said he'll be sending a bus soon...so before 11pm, we got on a bus...so dapat ok na, right?

when we reached new york at about 3am, the driver turns on the light and shot a question to everyone: "does anyone know how to get to port authority?" port authority is like the major bus station in manhattan...and i was like, "huh? ano to, joke?" so people were then giving directions to the driver; he got a little bit confused bec most of the passengers on the front rows were girls and gave him opposing directions...finally a guy walked to his side and started giving him directions...so again, dapat ok na, right?

so we got into times square where the port authority is at...but- this is really the most hilarious part- no one knew how to get into the bus lift...fyi, port authority also has this really big multi-floor area very similar to valet parking where buses have to drive through to pick up/drop off passengers...so i think we drove around 34th-48th and 8th-9th avenues twice (or more)...we tried to ask for help from a group of policemen; driver was honking but not one police noticed us! hahaha...anyways, we got into one side of port authority where the woman seated in front of me said she's sure that was where buses go into but the gate was locked! the second time we passed by it, she told the driver to go down and see if anyone was there...thankfully, merong isang police sa side ng gate who opened the gate and so our bus got in...but that's not it pa...driver went to the wrong lane and the bus couldnt do a reverse for a while to get into the right one...plus, he didnt know which gate to stop in (inside pala there's still a lot of gates so i can really understand the driver's confusion)...and then the passengers just told him to just stop ANYWHERE and just "let us off"...

funny huh? that was the weirdest trip ever...

pero happy pa rin overall!!

tama na yan inuman na

like marlon, i am terribly sad, need to drink some!!!

i was supposed to meet H1 today...yesterday, he said that he'll be in ny to do some stuff for work and asked that we meet straight after work...so shempre i was excited to see him again...then come 3pm he said he was stuck in traffic due to rain in staten island, new jersey or whathaveyou...around 5pm, he called but i missed his calls as had to do some work...anyways, received his vm, cancelling our dinner tonight, saying something like "i hope you don't mind. well, i know you mind because we made plans then di matutuloy...but i hope you understand." then he goes on to explain why he couldnt make it...that at that time he was still in newark and that he was really exhausted being "trapped" inside his car for hours and that it was raining and since traffic was really jammed, he just decided to go home...ugghh!!!

like what we always said di ba cherryl/marlon, kung gusto may paraan, kung ayaw, madaming rason (tama ba?)...anyways, i think i sort of understand; as a friend, i think it would be fine...but thing is, i have to admit, na-attached na ko sa kanya (chuks!) so mejo kindda may mga expectations...so what this is telling me is that maybe he really isn't that interested in me...that perhaps once it becomes inconvenient then i am not worth pursuing (chuks!) kasi konting compromise lang coming to ny (i think ha- shempre di ko naman alam pero iisipin ko to kasi mejow galit ako), hindi nia magawa...then i go on to think perhaps it's because he has invested so much on his ex-fiance, wala ng naiwan sa kanya or ayaw na niang mag-invest as much (sabunutan ko yung girl na yun talaga)...but no, just last tuesday, he left work early (ergo, kaltas sa pay nia kasi he's paid according to the number of patients he treats) to accompany a friend na girl (met her na, and im sure they're just friends) to get her driver's licence, so issue here is not really about compromise...i dunno, tas eto pa: na-compare ko na naman sia with the guy i first dated when i came to ny...yun, no doubt super interested sa akin kasi he would go to extremes talaga just to see me, please me etc. (i.e. he took vaca leave for a few days para samahan ako to get some legal docs etc- not that i asked pero it was sweet, in a way)...too bad, i don't like him so much as to actually want to be in a long-term relationship with him...hmmm why am i comparing boylets???!!! not fair at all...

anyways, i won't overanalyze na...maybe it's not worth it; maybe this is buh-bye...sad!!! inuman na!!!

adik, adik, adik!!!

Sabi ni R: "ung palagian magkita ay pwedeng masanay at magkasawaan. kaya maganda pa rin kung nagkaka-missan"

Yan din sabi ni H1 kanina, na sometimes, you may have to follow the two-day rule...na dont contact the other person for two days; this is to see if the other person na mauuna in contacting you so this way, you know daw that you have a chance with that other person...I mean, what's the deal with this? Mejo uminit ulo ko sa kanya. Bat kelangan ng "games"?Bat kelangan pa-miss-in yung isang tao? Kung gusto, gusto; kung ayaw, ayaw. Hindi kelangan pahirapan ang isat isa...

Say ni Marlon:

chux.

there is some truth in what they said, and most of us are guilty of this.
naniniwala naman ako sa delayed gratification, makes us appreciate things a lot more.
but this is only good, if somehow you're assured of where you actually stand in the relationship.
the problem with what i have with him (if ever we have anything, in the first place) --
i have no clear idea of his real intentions.
i want to believe na something special is going on, but there are signs that say otherwise.
sometimes i don't feel his sincerity, and sinabi ko na yun sa kanya.

minsan nalulungkot ako kasi feeling ko ginagamit lang ako ng mga lalaki sa buhay ko (harsh!).
in spite of the things na nangyari sa amin, aids and i remained friends until a few weeks ago.
nett said that na hindi ako mabitiwan ni aids kasi may nakukuha sya sa akin na
di kayang ibigay ng girlfriend nya and his other friends.
di ko alam kung ano yun, but he sounds happy when he talks to me.
but then he disappears, and contacts me again if he needs me once again.
and i don't even bother to call him kasi i know na he's just there, unless i need him.
stewart called me the other night para magpatulong sa isang project nya ngayon.
although nilibre naman nya ako ng dinner when we went out last time,
but i get the feeling na naaalala lang ako pag kailangan nila yung tulong ko.
it's flattering, yes, but is this what i want for the rest of my life?
to quote kate winslet in the holiday, to be the bestfriend, and not the leading lady?

chux.

tinawagan ko si R kanina sa hotel room after he gave me his number,
kasi may isusumbong/ikukwento sya sa akin.
like a good friend, super listen naman ako and gave him advice.
it was somewhat work-related, pero more on personal din kasi we talked about his family, etc.
but i noticed he didn't even ask me about me.
all he ever asked was kamusta na ako, and sabi ko, ok lang naman.
i'm not expecting na mag-ask sya kung ano ikinamatay ng lolo ko,
or kung gaano kadami ang mga pinsan ko sa father side,
pero somehow, i want to feel na part of him is interested to know me.
i never thought na i'll ever be interested in him (iglesia, age gap), but i'm starting to miss him.

but the question is, am i just going to be the bestfriend AGAIN?

sorry kung lagi na lang ako naglalabas ng inis related to him.
and i guess, it's too early to even rant about what's happening with us (us!).
siguro it's not really about him, but rather about what i want in my life.
ayoko nang ma-feel na emotionally ginagamit lang ako to fill some void in their lives,
and i want to experience being genuinely wanted, more than needed.

or is this the case of being burned too many?

anyways, gusto ko nang mag-vacation at mag-white water rafting.
and ayoko nang ma-inlove EVER again.
sad, but i guess it works for me -- masarap ang tahimik na buhay.

cherryl, kamusta ka na? chux.

friday confusion

so we agreed that he'd pick me up from the newark train station as he'll be coming from work in far away new jersey and show starts at 730pm in union county (new jersey pa din). my trip was kindda stressful kasi it was my first time to go to newark and i had no idea that i needed to transfer trains three times; sabi nia kasi twice lang. anyways, as always, it's good there was someone who helped me get to my destination.

so we drove to the theater. when we found our seats, he goes "mama ko, papa ko..." , tas yung couple sa next to our seats nag-extend ng hand nila. so pa-shake hands ako kahit mejo nataranta aku, i had no idea na kasama ang the parents; or na magiging katabi namin! when we talked kasi the day before the show, he said kasama nia cousin nia. i dunno if it's because i mentioned to him one time na i dont wanna meet the parents of those i go out with (say! as if madami!) kasi it puts undue pressure eh di pa naman kayo sigurado if you'll end up together to which he said, normally he does the opposite para makilala ng parents nia kasi close nga sia sa parents nia. so anyways, i sat with the mom on my left tas sia sa right ko. yung two kids (girl and boy aged around 7 and 4, resp.) ng cousin nia (who was seated a few rows sa likod namin) lumapit sa amin tas umupo sa lap nia; buti na lang the younger kid (name is something like henritz; named after him daw. no chuks) kinuha after a while ng mama nia.

show was really good, save for the sound system; or baka the dance group just brought really badly recorded CDs; and the three intermission numbers na walang connect sa show (i.e. isang fil-am sang "my girl", saykolow di ba?) kaya parehas kami tipong kung pede lang magcomment sa producer, ginawa na namin. the group actually danced quite a lot..dances from luzon (palayok), mindanao (singkil), visayas (curacha, rigodon- though not sure sa spelling and kung dun talaga nag orignate pero most of the songs were in bisaya/waray). my fave part was the finale, they had this interpretative dance, a bit jazzy, about the kkk and the filipino's struggle for freedom. both males/females were wearing these long brown gowns na tinataas nila hood (a la gregorian chant) pag tipong pa-salakay na sila...tas shempre hindi mawawala si inang bayan...it was so good, i cried. no kidding. nakakahiya nga tas wala pa akong tissue. tas when he found out na i was crying (mejo nabasa fez ko ng onti altho hindi level ng hagulgol ko sa "pagdadalaga...") he was like patting my arm and kindda natatawa. masama yun. i think i wasn't the only one who cried kasi mama nia i saw wiping her eyes for a while.

the show ended mga past ten na tas afterwhich may bday party cousin nia. again, hindi nia itu na-mention pero go na rin ang kaladkarin. kasama namin sa car nia yung two kids na nakakatawa kasi sila nagbibigay ng directions to their house tas hindi alam which way is left or right...tuturo lang nila go to the "middle!" kasi nasa middle nga naman ng mga houses ang street.

house nila is a three-family house. sa basement sia, first floor cousin nia tas sa second, yung parents nia. when we arrived, nandon na a few ng mga katita-han and katito-han nia na ma-chika naman. so mejo alam na nila history ko, vietnam etc. yung isang tita nagtanong kelan bday ko para alamin horoscope sign ko. so yun nalaman ko parehas pala kaming virgo ni H1 tsaka yung two kids- kaya daw mababait kami bwahaha. funny thing is, sa nine-week novena nila which will have a whole day affair complete with song and dance numbers as finale this coming august; his mama na sponsor daw for this year sa novena na yun invited me sa weekly novena (saturdays sa manhattan) and to join them sa rigodon. ok ako sa novena (so mejo magiging santa na ata ako!) but smile lang ako about the rigodon bit kasi they were talking about long gowns sa affair (i dont have and i dont wear long gowns!). hindi ko nakayanan.

party ended at about 2am and mejo hiya na ko magpadrive sa kanya to queens or kahit sa station so nag-oo na lang ako when they asked me to sleep over na lang. kaya yun...dun ako natulog sa second floor. tas after i took a bath, he messaged me to call him if i need anything. sabi ko no. i know kindda praning, pero scared ako maiwan alone with him. i mean, yeah, ok lang bastusin ako. chuks. pero not the right time pa hahahaha. and plus, i honestly dunno if ready na sia.

repeat to self: *detach* *detach*...

Something Sweet. Chuks.

Ronnie (04/27/2007 5:43:29 PM): dati pa kita gusto makasama kasi sa first impression ko sa iyo ay mabait ka talaga.
Ronnie (04/27/2007 5:44:33 PM): kaya palagay ang loob ko sa iyo. di mo ba napansin kapag pumupunta ako sa inyo di kita nakakalimutan na batiin kahit dati pa na hindi tayo gaano na nagkakausap.